I DONT KNOW HOW TO END THIS!!!!!!!!!!!

                                                            HAVE A GOOD BREAK Y'ALL.

sooo last night was awwesome. glad to be around people again!

 we all saw a different side of courtney lol .. damn can that girl dance.

          saw a very cute guy we talked a lot about my tonsils.. he was a cool cat. i liked him.

hope everyone was fun and safe!

               maybe ill put pictures up if any one has any lol

<3 U!

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OK Y'ALL TOMORROW IS THE DAY!!!! WISH ME LUCK AND LEAVE ME CUTE COMMENTS SAYING HOW MUCH YOU LOVE ME! Lol

any way. if you want to come visit me.. call 441-0545 thats my home phone and then you can see if im up to having people over or not. coz im sure i wont even function well enough to know how to work my cell.

i come home from the hospital around like 7 so i prolly wont be able to see anyone till wednesday.

tonight im going to the KU game... HELLLL YEA. gunna be taughhht

any hoo! aww someone ran into joe today at school and hit his security car poor joe.

It's WINTER BREAK!

everyone be careful this break, i dont want to have to come tos chool finding out that like another 20 ppl got DUIs or arrested or hurt or whatever! lol be careful!

im becoming addicted to working out. it's kinda cool

any way i love you allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll

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any way! i lovvve you all! calll me ill be bored and lonely!

you gotttta .. treat her like a ladddy!

anyhoo.

missing a lot of people right now. dont really know when i'll get to see some of them. it really hit me today and for once.. i talked to my mom about it. that was kinda cool i guess.

i realized that i've got too much hope and passion for things and people out there. and their failure just isnt acceptable to me. i choose not to see it, and blind myself completley. i'm not really sure why, but today i realized i can't do that anymore. i guess my heart should go down a few sizes, because caring so much usually makes my heart hurt the worse in the end.

         my surgery is getting closer and closer. and i know that's all i talk about, sorry you guys. im just really scared.

any way. i lovvve y'alll im out.

C'mon people now,
Smile on your brother
Ev'rybody get together
Try and love one another right now

EDIT EDIT!! IM OFF DIVERSION BITCHES!!!

EDIT!!! im getting my tonsils out Dec. 20th ( the day we get outta school for xmas vcation   )  visit meeeee im scared shitless.

HOLY SKYFOX! IT'S SNOWING!!!

 which is completley weird, because i recal we had a tornado in kansas yesterday, and .. umm hail all around joco. hmm.. kansas is mighty odd this year. i like it though i was going crazy about the weather yesterday just like this summre. muah haha

this break was alright, didn't do as much stuff as i normally would have. but i did have fun. of course at josh and andrews

thanksgiving... wow.

alls i gotta say.. is 15 bur and a happy family. haha j osh and i were crazy. . and i give major props and thank my family for cooperating with me.. and um thinking i was funny rather than an idiot.. even tho that prolly crossed their minds. esp when i foudn out i had a ua the next day. lol

i wish i had more new pictures. unfortunatley i dont this week. bu ti still have ones y'all havnt seen.

How can you just walk on by
without one tear in your eye
don't you have the slightest feelings left for me?
maybe that's just your way
of dealing with the pain
forgetting everything between our rise and fall
..like we never loved at all.

                             I have officially watched the CMAs like 61/2 times. fabulous!

today is my mothers birthday!!

cathy is 40!!!! doesnt even look like it.. i better be liek that when i grow up. prolly will just look liek an unger tho... unfortunatley.

ya kno i was thinking.. i need just like 1 whole week where it is completley freeze my balls off cold.. because i want to snuggle up... drink hot chocolate... watch christmas movies... CHRISTMAS VACATION!!! and have it feel right.. not be wearing shorts. or shorts and a hoodie or sweats and a wife beater. my poor brain and body is so damn confused.. it can't keep up, and littl ecourtney is about to loose it. however, if spring could just hurry the hell up and get  here.. id liek that too. evne tho i love winter, ive come to the conclusion that this year.. will not be like the rest.. and will be shitty. so lets just have spring come.. and lets just have courtney t urn 18 already.

LADIES AND GENTS...

I GET OFF DIVERSION TOMORROW!!

we hope.

i have an ENT appt. tomorrow about getting my damn tonsils out they'r ethis huge

O  , O

That's the size.. actually i think they're larger. and that comma is my hanging down thing.

i played a little too hard with jacob this weekend i think i bruised my lower vertebrae .i kno i spelld that wrong.. shut up.

i have a lot to talk about coz i havnt had anyone to talk to.. so jus tdeal with it!

i need to get my hair donnnnnnne! it's starting to drive me insane

and i live by ' your hair makes or breaks you'

and righ tnow.. im broken...  so sad. so sad.

Sweet like a kiss sharp like a razor blade
I find you when I’ m close to the bottom
You cant appreciate the time it takes
To kick a love I always knew was kind of wrong
And as I’m putting out the flame
Somebody brings up you name

( Vsfeeling me.)

well fucking xanga says ive reached my goddamn limit for this month or w/e with fucking pictures so i can't put any up right.. now. ill put some up as soon as i can..

byeee everyone~!!!!!!

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